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*Thursday, June 04, 2009*

And God said, "Let there be light," and there was light.

how sweet this sentence is.. the absolute sovereignty of our Almighty God.. today i had the taste of it.. one wrong move in our decision, and we can expect things to fall from the top right to the bottom.. today i fell.. and now i had to climb all the way back up again.. i wouldnt refer it as "a walk with Jesus".. i call it "a climb with Jesus".. imagine a climbing a cliff without the safety precautions.. and i thought i knew how to climb on my own.. so i went ahead.. leaving Jesus further down there.. ignoring His cries for me to slow down and test all the rocks stability.. and there, a weak foundation rock was all it took for me to fell.. all the way to the bottom.. He couldnt save me (obviously He could, but just for this story's sake), for i went too far ahead of Him.. and there, He cried.. and then He jumped down too, to the bottom.. just to start the climb again with me..

its really fatal.. i felt like i couldnt face Him.. yes, i couldnt.. i bowed down in remorse.. waiting for my punishments.. and there, i felt teardrops.. and my heart broke, tears streaming down.. again and again, i promised never shall i climb on my own.. but each time it just happens again.. i couldnt find any excuse.. im beyond hope..

so i just remained bowed.. waiting and waiting.. for i could not say anything anymore.. wad a untrustworthy man i am.. who in the right mind would trust me now? theres the me.. never keeping any promises i made.. i reproached myself.. i hate myself.. for failing so easily.. speechless..

yAoYoNg WhIsPeRs

*Thursday, May 28, 2009*

*WARNING*
ranting post coming up, please leave if u dont want to read

just had one of the worst day of my life..

went to watch soccer yesterday night.. barcelona won! thats one good thing.. then when i went out today, i didnt see one single man utd jersey on the streets.. that should silent the man utd fans for awhile..

slept till late today.. woke up at 10.30am.. my eyes still damn red.. been red for the whole night.. i lied that its not itchy or painful.. it was actually quite uncomfortable.. not like the pain or itch will go away if i complained or wad.. so no point bothering anyone =) didnt want to spend that money to go and see doctor..

stomach was uncomfortable in the morning.. went toilet twice.. left house for aljunied, continued to felt uncomfortable on the train.. Thank God i managed to make it all the way to aljunied.. went to the swee lee warehouse to check out guitar.. after choosing wad we wanted, we need the approval.. honestly, to my surprise, we were rejected.. for some reasons that i didnt think was valid at all.. but wad could we say under such power and dictatorship? left swee lee with only a cable.. i wanted to buy the special drumstick, but it costs $44.. so i gave up on it.. stomach was again uncomfortable.. went to the toilet there.. only had the squatting one.. and boy do i hate squatting ones.. but had no choice.. went to kopitiam for some drink and chitchat..

after that went down to airport T1 for dinner.. went back T3 for shopping.. bought some stuff.. drained all my money.. i was left with nothing in my wallet.. how pathetic.. before leaving, i went to the toilet again.. then after we board the bus, i felt stomachache coming.. went down when it reached T2 and rushed to the toilet.. and the toilet is seriously creepy.. so i quickly finished off and went off.. so that was my 5th visit to the toilet in one day.. the worse part is that my ez-link card had no money left.. so i gave $1.90 in coins the first time.. and then another $1.90 to go home.. in addition to that, the 2nd time i board the bus, i had no seat! i had to stand all the way till yishun..

upon reaching home, i took my phone to charge.. and i checked my messages cos the battery was flat.. to my dismay, the middle joystick button got stucked! so its like touchpad now.. upon slight contact with the joystick, it will be pressed.. which is quite troublesome.. first the battery spoilt and bloated.. then now the button jammed.. oh.. how great.. and the lack of money to buy new battery means that the phone could explode anytime in my ear.. signal to start using my army phone earlier? perhaps..

on top of that, apparently i made someone angry.. bad day bad day.. but i thank God for giving me one more day to live on Earth..

yAoYoNg WhIsPeRs

*Wednesday, April 01, 2009*

had an average birthday.. or maybe just that i didnt go out celebrate, thats why i think it sucked.. well.. 20th already finally.. stepping into the "2" already.. scary.. how time flies heh.. okies.. shall not say too much stuff..

Thanks to yenyee ds, xiangyun, zhiyuan, justina, qing, my mum, zhihui jie, my bro yaomin, miaoxin.C.S, mone, huihui, wanqian, suying for their sms well wishes~

Thanks to xinying, guangliang, beatbeat, antz, jason, junrou, peiwei, ann, kok yeow, becky, joyce, jennie, shiang, herman, desmond, joseph, mingsing, miss tan, yvonne, jocelyn for the facebook wall wishes~

Thanks to xinlin, antz, guangliang for the msn well wishes~

Thanks to yitong ds, vince, miaoxin(again), shenhong for their in-person well wishes~

BIG THANKS to dearest WANYI~ who really made my day.. if not this will be one of the worst birthdays i had! Thanks for all the nice presents! <3 <3 <3 BIGGEST THANKS to GOD and MUM~ without God, i wouldnt be here.. without Mum, i wouldnt be here either.. Thanks Mum for carrying me for 9months and painfully brought me to the world.. Thanks Mum for caring and providing me for 20years! Cheers to Mum! *drop tears*

Toshiba 8GB Thumbdrive
Vince + XiangYun: Thanks for the thumbdrive =D

Amy Sands Worship Songs CD
ShenHong: Thanks for the CD, got some nice songs =D

Hovono Optical Mouse (not really a birthday present but i'll consider it as anyway)
From: ~WanYi~

*Slurps*

Yummy!!

Mmmhmm!!

Gone! =D
Birthday Cake baked personally by ~WanYi~ ^^
YUMMY!!

Very Cute Card with a Heart
Inside is quite cute too but no way i will post wads inside =P
From: ~WanYi~

BodyShop: White Musk for Men
Been eyeing that for sometime xD
From: ~WanYi~

Very Nice Small Bag
Guess wad isit for?
From: ~WanYi~

To put the BodyShop Eau de Toilette in!
From: ~WanYi~

Thats all for my birthday.. apologies if i missed out anyone in the thanking session just now..
~Cheers!~

yAoYoNg WhIsPeRs

*Friday, March 20, 2009*

im feeling an uneasiness in my life.. something just isnt right.. not that theres something missing.. something just isnt functioning right.. and i do wonder wad it is..

perhaps its cos i have lots of things to be done? and i cant decide which one to start with?

maybe its cos i've been idling too much? need a work..

maybe its cos the jobs that i looked up.. lots of them had requirements that i SHOULD have but dont have.. did i try to work hard to improve myself? or do i just suck?

maybe its cos i havent been exercising? nor eating healthily?

maybe its the fact that the treasury is running dry..

"learn to say no" how does one really say no in some situations? how does one say no to approaches when one is having holidays and "SO FREE".. its the small little things that we do, so says the archbishop.. how does having holidays equate to "so free"? to me, holidays are just times where we can finally do the things that we had to put aside for so long..

how does one really be humble? theres no way i can be considered humble.. and thats seriously very frustrating..

yAoYoNg WhIsPeRs

*Wednesday, March 11, 2009*

looks like im addicted to playing with photoshop.. not the best looking.. but the its the best that i can produce =(

yAoYoNg WhIsPeRs

*Tuesday, March 10, 2009*

yoohoo~ yays today was a rather fruitful day.. did some "client" animation project ^^ 1st ever hahax.. i finished up some stuff which required my attention.. like coming up with bass schedule, emailing about love loaves, signing up with airforce and doing introduction for forum proposal.. thats quite alot considering i wanted to slack away my day..

but i really hate slacking.. i cant stand being cooped up at home doing nothing.. even though i watched youtube tutorials.. but still.. it sucks having to sit down all day long.. i want to get out!! jio me out please!

yAoYoNg WhIsPeRs

*Sunday, March 08, 2009*

Fusion2009 ended finally! well to be honest, it was boring.. nobody really visited our booths.. and furthermore we have NS to go to.. so theres no hurry to get working.. heres a look at my booth..

at least there was something interesting.. i was visited by joker! WHY SO SERIOUS?!

and well.. i finally graduated.. Digital Entertainment Technology (Technical Direction) ^^

yAoYoNg WhIsPeRs

*Monday, March 02, 2009*

allow me to perform a magic trick for you!

Preparing..

*poof* i went through the glass wall!

hahax a stupid thing.. just bored.. took this 2 pic quite long ago..

i got a new wallet!! from dearest wanyi~ =D so nice! ^^

woo~ have lots of things i wanna thank God for.. i wanna thank God for bringing me through this weekend.. this weekend had a loadful of things to do and think.. loadful of places and event to attend.. and somehow i managed to go through it without much problem.. especially the bible quiz part.. so Thank You Lord!

yAoYoNg WhIsPeRs

*Thursday, February 26, 2009*

烦呀烦！真是烦！看着那将要来临的事情，真是让人心烦。。在这几天内，有许许多多的事情等着我去做。。我是人，而每个人只由二十四个小时。。要做的事情好像都没有时间去做。。更让人心烦的是，在这几天内有很多的节目。。不但如此，这些节目的时间都一一的相撞。。真让我不知所措。。这些节目有如生日派对，乐团演出等等。。邀请我去的人都是对我很重要的人。。不去一个，就怕伤到另一个。。有没有人可以教教我怎么做才是最好的？

那些是烦恼的事。。可是还不是最令我头痛的。。更头痛的是钱的问题。。钱真是不够用。。我的银行的钱一瞬间的就消失了。。不是买别人的生日礼物就是花在吃上面。。而且要来临的 Fusion'09 也花费了我不少的钱。。没钱真是不好受。。钱不是万能的，可是没钱事万万不能的。。我现在才真正的了解这句话的意思。。

然而，我还是要把我的烦恼交在神的手上。。因为靠着自己来解决这些烦恼是不可能的。。唯独靠着神的能力我才能面对这些烦恼。。我会继续的向神祈祷，好让我可以把我的信心都放在神身上。。

[ 主啊，我恳切地祷告，希望你能听我的呼求。。主，我是个罪人，但是主你还是这么的接纳我。。主阿，我要谢谢你赐给我那美妙的恩典。。主啊，这个时候我把我的重担交托给你，求主你帮助我来面对这些烦恼。。求主赐我你那上头来得力量，让我能胜过这些的烦恼，好让你的荣耀能在我身上章显出来。。谢谢主你的一切一切，我将祷告献上，奉主耶稣得胜的名，阿门！ ]

yAoYoNg WhIsPeRs

*Tuesday, February 17, 2009*

men cant live without God.. period

yAoYoNg WhIsPeRs